‘Life is like a movie, write your own ending. Keep believing. Keep pretending’                  Jim Henson 


I love this quote, life is really like a movie, and the choices we make, lead to our future and our own personal development. We have got to think for the future! And what we want for our lives. And never, ever think something is out of reach because if you don’t believe, it will never happen!

Ho, ho, ho

7 weeks today until Christmas!!!!! 7!!!!!! That is mad.

Shops are already playing Christmas music, the displays are up, lights are being turned on! It is all very quick! People will begin rushing around, spending money they haven’t got on people they don’t really know just because they feel they ‘should’.

A lot of preparation of buying presents, the food, cooking, decorations. All for one day! One 24 hour day! I feel we all need to take a step back and just because some-one hasn’t bought you a fancy, expensive, all bells ringing, gift doesn’t mean they don’t like you or care about you, could just be because they simply haven’t got the money and instead we should appreciate the thought, and maybe meet up for a coffee. Or pick up the phone instead of spending lots and never actually seeing the person!

It is hard in this day and age though, we have adverts, social media, television, shops all saying spend, spend, spend!!! And we feel like we have to, there is no other choice! But i don’t know about you i would much rather have a chilled, happy Christmas spending time with people who i love and care about and that they do me, rather than anything else! After all who wants to waste their time in a boiling hot shop, sweating in their winter coat?!

Catch up

I haven’t posted in a while!

This is for a number or reasons, one being my spare time went into revising for my theory test & guess what?

It was worth it because I passed! I passed first time! I am so proud of myself because it’s one step closer to my goal! Proves that if you want something so bad, you put your mind to it and knuckle down you can do it!

I’ve also been so tired… our lives are one big routine, get up, go to work, do our chores, daily tasks & it’s bedtime. The alarm comes round too quickly and then it’s back to it again! I have been finding this hard recently, I’m exhausted. The other day I actually slept for 17 hours!!!! How is that possible?! I literally hibernated, went under the covers and didn’t come back up! It’s okay to have times like that though, I just hope it doesn’t frequently happen!

I will get back into posting my dizzy thoughts 💭

Is it coming home?

Is it coming home?

Of course it is!!

How amazing would it be for us if we won the world cup???!!! How proud we would feel! We would prove we are good at something!

Everyone is in good spirits at the moment, work places are closing early, giving people days off. People actually have a smile on there face walking around! We are being so patriotic and it is great!!

I want everyone to know England is good at something and we are proud to be English!!!!!

‘One flag, One nation, One dream, One GOAL too bring that trophy home’!


Just watched a video about someone saying ‘Follow your dreams’. He is saying if you don’t like your job, quit. If you don’t like where you live, move. If you haven’t seen something you would like to do, do it. If you want to change your whole life tomorrow, that is fine.

But isn’t there one thing stopping you from all those things? Money!

I can’t afford to change those things even if i wanted too! It is all well and good saying move here, do this, change this. But how??? He doesn’t actually say how or the set backs of these ideas! People are probably watching this video and it has got a few cliffhanger music tunes, he sounds very motivational, a few edit shots. People will do it and then the reality will hit and then they will be stuck!!

Maybe it is just me thinking that?

I have lots of ideas and plans i would love to do but i simply have one thing missing, money! Do i sound vain? Or practical?

I think i need a get rich quick idea? Or win the lottery? Have to actually start playing first!!

Let me know what your thoughts are?

Summertime ☀️

It is summer!!!!! We have been blessed with heat and sunshine! And for longer than a day or two!

I am definitely a summer girl! I feel so much better when the sun is shining, more happy, feel better, look better, have more energy.

Now is it summer, I have started going running again. If not a run, a walk. Getting outside and doing something. You’re in the sun, and fresh air! Why not?

It’s so relaxing & uplifting to be with nature! I think it’s important to go outside & move for at least 30 mins a day!

I’ve also started walking home from work, I’m not going to catch the bus- bonuses of this, I get exercise, I de-stress, save money, enjoy the weather!

My skin care routine is also different, I don’t wear a lot of make-up if at all! I have a glow to my skin now & how much is life better when you have a tanned? I make sure I use water and moisturise though, as being outside more and with this weather you sweat and dry out your skin!

What does everyone else do?

Thanks for reading

Tick tock

Time goes so quickly. I was at the bus stop thinking & I overheard someone saying ‘I can’t believe it’s the sixth month’! Then I realised ‘oh my gosh it is June’! How does that happen?!

We go to work, finish and then go to bed. And repeat until it’s back to Monday again!

Before we know it it will be Christmas! And then 2019 here we come!

I think sometimes we need to stop getting in a the routine & start living! Make sure you experience life aswell as your day to day lives! You have something you want to do? Go on holiday! Learn that new skill! See that thing you’ve always wanted to! Spend time with people you love and who want to share life with you! Because before you know it, it’ll be Monday again.. and again!

Why can’t we succeed?

Hellooo Wednesday,

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Went for my 12th driving lesson today and, well i am writing this so i survived, i actually think i am getting better! Before i went i had a sudden urge to do really well and to set myself some goals and push myself to achieve them! This wasn’t just in driving. My manager at work asked if, in the future, i would like to go on a course to get an amazing qualification. It involves a lot of assignments and getting your head down. At first i was like ‘oh no, i couldn’t’ and then the more encouragement she gave me, i felt excited and that ‘you know what? I could do this’. I would have something to aim for and when i pass and get more knowledge in what i am studying. How great would i feel?

Then usually, when it is my driving lesson in the evening, all day i get incredibly anxious, and think of all the bad things that could happen. But today i thought of all the good things that could happen, and that one more lesson down is closer to the day when i am confident and good at driving!

Both my instructor and my manager gave me encouragement and told me stories that they have done within what they would like me to do, and that boosted me so much! Knowing that they have felt how i was feeling and didn’t want to do something or felt nervous. Now look at them, they are confident and great at what they do! Made me think ‘if i keep going and be determined to achieve, why can’t i succeed’?


Not all wounds are visible

This is a hard blog for me to write. Its actually hard for me to get it out on paper!

June is PTSD awareness month! What is PTSD? Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. What is that in basic terms? It is somebody who has experienced or witnessed a terrifying thing or numerous things. Frankly that no-one should ever have to go through or see. Who is effected? Could be anyone! Why is this hard for me to talk about? Because i have it. I don’t like to use the word diagnosed, it sounds like a horrific disease!

Now i used to think PTSD was just what our soldiers have, i don’t know why, i think its because watching the news thats all they said when they mentioned PTSD! When i was in my late teens, they said i have PTSD. I thought how on earth can i have that? I haven’t got the ‘right’ to have that. I haven’t been to war and fought for my country! Why am i going through this?

The reason why is because i had a traumatic, terrifying childhood, I went through and seen things that some people, who have lived their whole life wouldn’t even believe would happen. And all this going into my brain, onto my little shoulders, without letting any of it out. After a while my brain just simply couldn’t cope and it broke, re-set.

My symptoms of PTSD i have experienced in the past (some present) :-

  • Reliving moments over and over again, the flashbacks are so real, like i am back there again.
  • Panic attacks
  • Anxiety
  • Depression
  • Self harm
  • Certain triggers that make me feel scared
  • Hallucinations
  • Sudden mood changes
  • Anger over little things
  • Relating to people, certain stories that take you back there
  • Getting worked up
  • Blocking it out, pretending my childhood was perfect, or great, or even good, you know what i’d settle with okay!

The biggest one for me is guilt, i blame myself for a lot of things, realistically i know i couldn’t of changed/stopped a lot of things, well i am slowly getting to believe this. But even little things that go wrong in my life now i over-react because of bigger issues. I blame my self for everything!

Right. Phew. I am going to end this blog here as thats enough opening up for a day!

I will however do another blog on how i am getting through and coping with PTSD as i want to make more people aware and let go of this stigma!

But don’t let this blog make you feel sad or a bit shocked! Just think we are all still standing and we are all strong!!!